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Luke Orion 🏳️‍⚧️♾️🥄<p>A little vocal cover from me; “Help!” by The Beatles… :sharesloved: <br><a href="https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8FKkjxS/" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://www.</span><span class="">tiktok.com/t/ZP8FKkjxS/</span><span class="invisible"></span></a></p><p>I am <a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/fundraising" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>fundraising</span></a> for an RV as a <a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/nonbinary" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>nonbinary</span></a> <a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/ActuallyAutistic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ActuallyAutistic</span></a> person with chronic pain and <a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/CPTSD" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>CPTSD</span></a>, alongside my transfem autistic partner, who deals with similar disabilities. We are homeless, have 2 cats named Max and Lenny, and we both make music! I also take digital art commissions!</p><p>Everything from our <a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/IndependentMusic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>IndependentMusic</span></a> to <a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/ArtCommissions" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ArtCommissions</span></a> to the RV fundraiser can be found via my hyperfollow :blobcathugyou:</p><p><a href="https://hyperfollow.com/LukeOrion" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://</span><span class="">hyperfollow.com/LukeOrion</span><span class="invisible"></span></a></p><p>Thank you! :blobhaj_plead_2: <br><a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/MutualAidSavesLives" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MutualAidSavesLives</span></a> <a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/MutualAidRequest" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MutualAidRequest</span></a> <a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/Singing" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Singing</span></a> <a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/crowdfund" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>crowdfund</span></a> <a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/DisabledArtist" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>DisabledArtist</span></a> <span class="h-card" translate="no"><a href="https://a.gup.pe/u/actuallyautistic" class="u-url mention" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">@<span>actuallyautistic</span></a></span> <span class="h-card" translate="no"><a href="https://a.gup.pe/u/mutualaid" class="u-url mention" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">@<span>mutualaid</span></a></span> <a href="https://indiepocalypse.social/tags/StrugglingArtist" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>StrugglingArtist</span></a></p>
Toadlyturtle<p><a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/SabiLewSounds" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>SabiLewSounds</span></a> is <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/Disabled" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Disabled</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/Latina" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Latina</span></a> Multidisciplinary Artist; 24/7 Caretaker for elderly mom &amp; ESA bun</p><p>$1037 Minimum Needed<br>$1131 Covers all Bills<br>$2131 All Needs</p><p>$172 Hotel Past Due<br>$865 Hotel Due 2.5 Days<br>$94 Registration &amp; DL × 2 Due Immediately!!!<br>$730 Deficit<br>$270 Gas &amp; Food &amp; etc</p><p><a href="https://PayPal.me/SabiLewSounds" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://</span><span class="">PayPal.me/SabiLewSounds</span><span class="invisible"></span></a><br><a href="https://Ko-Fi.com/SabiLewSounds" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://</span><span class="">Ko-Fi.com/SabiLewSounds</span><span class="invisible"></span></a></p><p><a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/Mastodon" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Mastodon</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/Fediverse" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Fediverse</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/Boost" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Boost</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/MutualAidRequest" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MutualAidRequest</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/SupportDisabledArtists" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>SupportDisabledArtists</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/TraumaSurvivor" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>TraumaSurvivor</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/cPTSD" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>cPTSD</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/MutualAid" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MutualAid</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/Poverty" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Poverty</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/LightWithin" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>LightWithin</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/Fempreneur" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Fempreneur</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.social/tags/MentalHealthAdvocate" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MentalHealthAdvocate</span></a></p>

Fuuuuk. I'm having a really rough day and for the first time in a while I could really use some simple, patterned, reliable, deep, long-form, raw emotional processing.

But the social platforms I use for that (which took me a decade to figure out and build a good pattern on) are all shifting and all these big social platform changes and the ramifications are hitting really, really hard right now. 😖

Like, I'm both into it and accept change, but this SUCKS.

I don’t share my music on here enough :ablobcatcoffee:

This is my first EP, “Burning Mind” with three instrumental songs about various aspects of my ptsd: and a hint of autism.

I’ve been told these specific tracks remind folks of #StardewValley & #Minecraft, if that gives you any idea of what they sound like.. boosts appreciated!

#DisabledArtist #ActuallyAutistic #DisabledMusician #QueerMusician #IndieMusic #Instrumental #LGBTQIA #Trans #NonBinary @actuallyautistic #TransMusic #PTSDSurvivor #CPTSD #PTSD #Queer

open.spotify.com/album/7sOolZd

SpotifyBurning Mind (Instrumental)Luke Orion · Single · 2023 · 3 songs

The ironically painful thing about living with #cPTSD is being so disconnected from feeling your emotions that it’s so alien- it feels like the feeling part of your brain has been almost entirely removed forever. Sometimes it’s difficult to see a future where I’m capable of crying again.

My brain is hiding my emotions from me. I know they’re happening because I’m exhausted and feeling hollow. I just can’t access them to deal with them. #CPTSD and childhood trauma are jerks. As is my brain. It’s trying to protect me, but I don’t need it to. I suspect at some point today I’m going to bump into something minor and have a complete meltdown.

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@bazkie The latter, the can't live up to it part. That's the inner critic's goal, to keep me living in the past, when high expectations were heaped on me, trapped in trauma.

That's why I need to make some art. To get out of my head and into the world, where the inner critic cannot operate. #cptsd